Raging River july 29th

The dizzying of the rain that poured all through the night, filled the rivers today.  The waterfalls have been roaring, crashing into our sacred swimming spot just across the road of onipa”a. You could hear its thunder from the workshop, behind the banana trees. I stood in aw of our swim hole, warping into a whirlpool, energy crashing, mist rising, to my face. Just the thought of jumping in, sent my thoughts cascading down the river. The might and power of the water astounded me.

Today was slow and lazy, filled with reading books and quinoa nori wraps. We gathered in the evening as a community and I could feel the sleepy spirit. We ate Kale salads with yummy miso nutritional yeast dressing, coconut quinoa, and this incredible bread with onions in them. It seemed like a feast. Home strummed his guitar and brook played the drums and the kids played on the silks and fought and played, continuously, little bear napped off and on.

Ive been hungry to read lately. Ive dove into the book “the white Orelader” and I haven’t been able put it down long. Its about this girl whose mother is beautiful and mysterious, dangerous and talented. She ended up getting jealous of her lover, who cheats on her, and kills her using the white orelnader. The mother is thrown in jail and the little girl jumps from  foster home to foster home, enduring the strangest  events that test her strength. I see a lot of myself in the girl. The book is fluid with rhythm and poem.

Im finally here

Im finally here, and it still hasn’t hit me. Sunshine nearly everyday, a pleasant Rain nearly every night and almost anywhere you go, there is the ocean in sight and a breeze in my hair, Im here, Im really here, living in Maui. This is and was my dream, and I’ve made it.  Been here officially two weeks now, and my eyes feel like bleeding from all the new things Ive seen. We live in the jungles of Huelo or Haiku, it’s a little over an hour bike ride to the nearest bus stop, which can be a pain, but I didn’t come here for convenience, I came here for discipline, simplicity and a full emersion into nature and a far healthier lifestyle. I came here to meet myself, fullfll my dreams and plant my feet in the dirt and feel the hum of the earth, to get wound up in Merkaba, the fractals, and meditate on the nature of reality. Who are we, and where is God? 

We Did the bike ride for the first time a few days ago, and it was killer, but so worth it. My eyes felt like they were being dipped in a bowl of candy. We have a waterfall right out of front yard of Onipa’a, the self-sustainable community we live in, swimming in it is like floating in paradise, and it is. I can tell there are miles of water falls and streams to explore, right out our front yard. Its exciting, and overwhelming all the same.  Right across the road, of where we live off Hana Hwy on mile marker two, is Twin falls. Home, one of the members on the community, who started Onipa’a Took us there two days ago, and we hiked and swam for hours. Its kind of a bit touristy there, because lots of people who visit maui, drive the famous “ road to Hana” and one of the notorious stops is Twin falls. I remember reading about it in blogs and websites before we moved here. I don’t much mind though, its not over crowded and the sites are fabulous, with all the new kind of tress, crab claw flowers, avocado tress, and mind blowing bamboo, your heart could explode. Home took us to secluded waterfalls, where only locals really go. The hike took us through bamboo, and twisted tress, large leaves, across streams, up steep grades, over fallen logs and Koa tress.

Life here is more simple, and the people I meet are friendly. Its so easy to meet new friends, get in a conversation on the bus, or hitch a ride. Just last night I met a lady around my age, who gave all three of us a ride home from the Haiku community center. She was  a bit eccentric, talking fast about a boy she met, who she didn’t know where he lived and couldn’t remember his number, but was supposed to see him that night. She showed us her music she made on garage band, which didn’t sound half ba, her voice smooth and soothing. She told us how she performed on Fridays at the lillkoi Grill, perhaps sometime Ill come and see her. I grabbed her number, as she did offer to take us on the road to Hana drive.

We are all still trying to settle in here, and figure out how to set up a routine. Being in a jungle, Im still trying to figure out how to keep clean. Seems like all my cloths have mud on them, and my shoes too. Our cloths we must hand wash, which in fact I did a whole load last week, by myself, by hand. That was quite the experience. Took hours, in fact the whole process took nearly three days, from the wash buckets, to the three rinse buckets to the hand ringing, and hanging, the waiting for them to dry. Eventually were are going to get a hand ringer, jonni has even talked about putting together a bike powered ringer, which would be amazing!

Right at the moment I feel like I am in an actual dream, Im sitting in a little café in the small, historic town on Mokawao, sipping coffee, writing on my giant laptop, looking out the window and the bustling people going to different shops, in the sunshine, faith music playing, I think it might be Jazz, but Im not listening. I came here to Mokawao with home, who was checking out a work opportunity for our little crew, and was supposed to check out the library, but its Wednesday and the library here doesn’t open until noon, and its only 11:30am. Im content here in this little café, Im actually quite pleased to have some time to myself, away from the family, to just be a stranger in an unfamiliar town, and just write, let my brain wonder, to let things just kind of sink in.

Since Ive been here, I find myself doing a lot of internal searching, emotional purging and questioning what it really is that I want out of this, out of life, out of anything. I’m certainly doing a lot of cleansing. With the absence of dairy, meat, nicotine, alcohol, processed sugars, pesticides, aspertame and different synthetic chemicals, I find myself detoxing, in a way. For about three of four nights in a row I had a headache that emerged only in the evenings, I have a hunch it has a lot to do with the lack of processed sugars. Im looking forward to continuing to be vegan, and getting my body cleansed of chemicals, and getting far more healthy and in shape, this is just the beginning of an entirely new life, new body, new mindset, and a spiritual journey that will last a life time.

Kaia is still trying to find her grounding, with a lot of her time preoccupied with her new friend Koa who lives her, and who is only two months younger than kaia. They are learning how to share still and be nice to eachother, but still much of the time playing well. I can tell she is confused, and misses family but doesn’t know how to express it. There is times of outbursts and crying, but over all I think this is very good for her. We don’t have the opportunity to indulge is shows, or cartoons, and candy, and that for her is very different, but Im glad she is three rather than 11, or otherwise,  I could imagine it would be a lot harder. I feel like this is a good life change for her, for all of us, and in the long run, I hope It sets a president for the rest of her life.

I would say I was home sick, and Im sure I am, since I was gone for three weeks in New York, then only a week home, then a giant move to Hawaii for the last two weeks. I just haven’t had very many free moments to soak it in, to think about it, but I have had dreams of friends and family, one of the more memorable dreams being that it is 4^th of July again, and we are celebrating all over again. Im sure it will be more intense as more time passes. I feel at home away from home, and the feeling is slightly conflicting. I could see myself here for years, but I see myself home next summer, at least visiting.